Hello my sweet girl. I cleaned out your bedroom yesterday, and was going through left over clothes that your mom didn't get. There were some little newborn clothes of Kolbee's that I know don't fit her anymore. It hurts that we haven't been able to hold her in our arms, and love her and bond with her. Big doings tomorrow though, I think, and maybe this will be resolved...not to your liking, I'm sure, but it will be GOD's will for her. I got to talk to one of the other babies yesterday. It was so wonderful to hear her little voice. She is sounding so grown up. I can't wait to see her and Macie. For that matter, I can't wait to see you too. I looked at a bunch of pictures of your mom's yesterday, and you were such a sweet and cute little girl. You were always gorgeous. From the day you were born. I used to call you little gizmo, cause you looked like gizmo, the cute Gremlin. Caitlyn misses you so much, too. She loves looking at pictures of you. I understand your Mom is kicking some @$$ in the government agencies in SC, so I'm praying every day for justice for you my little sweetheart. I love you always.
Well Babe... I haven't been on here for awhile. I have been doing quite abit of soul searching lately, and of course you were my focus. I have since met Kolbee and spent time with Payton and Macie. We had the sweetest, best time, only the absence of your physical presence was astounding. I never realized just how much your little angels act so much like you. They were such a pleasure to be with. The memories that they spark without even knowing, brought back so many feelings and memories that it leaves you not knowing whether to laugh or cry. Things are still pretty crazy with all here though. It is so frustrating trying to find the right person to talk to that really cares, or really wants to help in finding some justice for you and your kids. You know we are taught to teach our kids to trust and believe that police are here to protect them, sometimes it is hard for little ones to believe that when they see so many adults crying in sadness and disbelief because the people we are suppose to call upon for help are the exact ones who are making things so difficult. It is so hard to start the healing process with ourselves and the children, because it is still so crazy pathetic how the people we all are suppose to rely on, make decisions about you and this whole situation without any concern about evidence, proof or information being screamed and begging for someone to listen. They didn't listen. They wouldn't listen, nor wanted to hear. I promised you that I WOULD see justice for you and the girls, and I will continue to climb higher and higher in the city government, county government, state government, or nationwide if need be. I believe the Lord when the Bible says "vengance is Mine, sayeth the Lord". I also believe the He gave all of us a brain to use so that we can help the process of justice when our loved ones are harmed, used, or otherwise abused on this earth, so that we left to pick up the peices can get some kind of closer or justice when these tragedies occur. Everyday it becomes more and more clear that you were so much a victim,
NOT a statistic as the RHPD have it recorded. I promised you that day as I whispered in your ear..... I will work diligently everyday for the rest of my life to prove the abuse that you endured your last hours on this earth, by these
evil people that still walk freely, to do this again and again to innocent, scared, and emotionally distraught people just as they did to you, will be stopped. I will work nonstop to put the pieces together so clearly that nobody will ever be able to deny that this is a crime, not an accident nor self inflicted. You trusted me your whole life through and I want let you down now. All my love my Sweet beautiful angel, til next time.
Hi beautiful girl, today is 3 months since you left us. God it still hurts so bad!!! Your babies are here visiting, Payton and Macie. I see you, in a look, smile, laugh, all they do! I feel so close to you with them here. Baby girl, I miss you so much, my heart will never be the same. I have so many memories of you, that make me laugh and some even cry. But I thank God, I have them, that we had you. Your death will not be in vain, and GOD will see to it that it is not. You are a light in my heart, my mind and I will love you more every day of my life. Your memory will be as big as your life, because you are loved so much, you are with us every minute of every day. I love you honey, until we meet again, and WE WILL, until then let me feel your love every day. I love you precious angel!
Kacey,
For the last few days you and the kids have been on my mind. To me you were and still are the only thing to a sister I will ever have. I know your heart was were it should have been and I know we will be united in the Kindom of Heaven when it is my turn to go. If i am luck you will be the one to meet me there. You have the biggest heart of anyone I have ever in my 29 years to know. I only wish you have the same feeling for yourself. I promise that your memory will be kept alive, your babies will know the mother they had. That you worshiped the ground they walked on. I only wish you didnt have to live the life you had to live. And everyday I am thankful to God that you and I became as close as we did. In some small way it has healed a small hole in my heart. You were so funny, you could make anyone laugh even if you didnt mean to. I love you and miss you so very much and we will get to the truth one way or the other!!!! That is a PROMISE!!!!!! I and your family will not rest until the truth is exposed and those people will not only have us to deal with but in the end they will have the ultimate judment in GOD himself. I love you with all my heart and I wiil never forget you I swear baby and neither will those beautiful babies of yours.
Not only your oldest cousin but my only sister
Lester
